Week of March 4th - March 10th
I am
Someone who is trusting, sharing, and learning to be satisfied
For the past 28 years I’ve lived in my own delusional world where I convinced myself I am not someone who desires control. I now know that if you are human, you crave control. It’s just what we desire to control that varies from person to person. This week I felt the release of that. That need to control will no doubt come back, but right now I’m trusting God will figure it out for me the way He always has.
This week my grandma turned 86 (!!!) and she is still kicking better than the rest of us. I baked sourdough bread for her party, of course. The greedy and maybe controlling part of me didn’t want everyone to eat all of it so I could have some for later. That feeling bubbling up paused me in my tracks. Parties and gatherings are to share our time and resources with one another. I quickly snapped out of it and wanted everyone to enjoy as much as they wanted becasue honestly, I can make myself a whole loaf anytime I want. It felt good to release that feeling and see how much others enjoyed it. AND there was plenty left over.
I am learning to be satisfied with what I have. Notice I said learning. I’ll be back when I have it locked down.
I want to be
Someone who applies boundaries
I listen to a lot of podcast and in all of these podcasts boundaries come up often. What I’ve learned after hearing about them so much is that boundaries are about what YOU do. They can’t be put on other people to do. So if my boundary is not talking about a certain topic with someone, I can’t expect them to not talk about it. But if I ask them to not talk about it, and they do, then it’s up to ME to remove myself from the conversation because we can’t control others. It’s hard because boundaries often inconvenience us in the moment, but in the long term hold us accountable to being the people we want to be.
I bought
Blake has a Nespresso machine and it makes me soooooo happy. Mine is still in storage so getting to have a delicious cup when I am at his house is best. Since I will probably use it more than him it’s only fair I stock up.
THIS. This is a game freaking changer. I have mixed feelings about hair ties these days unless it’s the giant silk scrunchies I mentioned last week. I prefer clips if I can, but when I’m working out its impossible. Enter flat claw clip. This lets me do workouts on my back without the fear of it digging into my brain, but these let me do what I need to completely comfortably.
I want to buy
If you’re on Instagram or listen to podcasts, you may have heard of Just Thrive Probiotics. I recently listened to the founder of Just Thrive on an episode of the Skinny Confidential and I’ve drank the Kool-Aid. When it comes to probiotics, from what I’ve learned, they do it right with their spore-based formula. My gut health is trash and if this helps I am willing to try.
These sandals are my tried and true. I wear them everywhere because they are so comfortable and cute. It’s been a little over a year and my current pair are beyond worn down. It’s time for a refresh.
I am doing
Florida Renaissance Festival
Beach hangouts
Grandma birthdays
30 minute runs
To do
60 minute runs
7 hours of sleep
Therapy
