Week of February 26th - March 3rd
I am
Someone who is “resting” and slowly, but successfully, more consistent and focused
The idea of resting and being consistent was originally counterintuitive in my brain, but hear me out. My morning routine consists of a workout 86% of the week. I mathed it up and what that really means is 6 out of 7 mornings I’m usually getting some movement in. Most of the time it’s a weight forward circuit class at IntensityX3. This week (and every week) they primarily target lower body. So on Wednesday my fifth alarm went off and I finally woke up for a 6AM Legs and Core. The difference to any other day is that I just could not do it. Instead I gave my legs and brain the needed rest via an extra 2 hours of sleep. It’s crazy to think I used to sleep through 10 alarms, truly no exaggeration. I would subconsciously turn the alarm off so quickly by clicking the side button - I would actually click all buttons so fast that I would have screenshots of my alarm. Embarrassing. Eventually it would hit me that I actually had to be somewhere and I’d jolt up in full fledged panic. A memory that haunts me is from my senior year of college when I was supposed to babysit for an ADPi alumni who was in Gainesville, FL. She had a big meeting, I slept through my alarm, and she had to bring her daughter to the meeting WITH her. My exhaustion and irresponsibility at that time of life is beyond my belief. You could say I’ve grown up a bit since then. I now have the opposite problem where I must wake up and I must do something in the morning. I know it isn’t a bad thing, don’t get annoyed with me! But, it is important to readjust the plans we make and take rest when needed, while still being consistent.
Which brings me to my next point, consistency and focus. On Wednesday, I slept in, but I also hit extra steps on my walking pad and did a quick arms workout between meetings throughout the day. I think the key to staying consistent, for me, is to be flexible. Don’t get me wrong…I am still very much learning this lesson. This consistency by way of flexibility has come to life for me this week in reading/listening to the Bible, keeping up with better eating habits (a lot on that later), and working on MisoMel. And this has been built on previous weeks of a flexible routine of setting apart dedicated time, keeping that commitment 86% of the time, and if I don’t, finding the next best time to keep it moving.
I want to be
Someone who is patient and has better memory
I say I trust God, right? But what does that even mean??? It hit me recently; having patience is having trust in action. There are certain parts of my life that I wish would fast forward because I want to know the outcome. In work, relationships, this website - I want to know how the story ends, but the chapters that make up the story are in the now and the discomfort of waiting. I think thats where God shows up…it’s not rushing but trusting (read: knowing) God is doing His thing and does not fail us. What I forget too often is that what I consider failures and what God considers failures are not the same. And 10/10 times it’s for the better.
You guys…my memory has gone to sh*t. The other day I had to drive back to my house after I left to confirm that I closed the door. Who does that?! I’ve been second guessing myself a lot lately and forgetting my thoughts and it’s freaking me out. Conveniently Fresh Air by NPR had a podcast this week on memory and it made me feel a little better. Of course I don’t remember the main points, but it offered relief in the moment. Anyway, if someone has solutions or wants to confirm I’m not dying I would sincerely appreciate it.
I bought
PanOxyl Acne Foaming Wash Benzoyl Peroxide 10%
This is for sure cheating because I bought this on a subscription basis several months ago, but it arrived this week and deserves to be acknowledged. My skin, body, odor, and body acne are in decent condition because of this product. I lather it on 93% of my body when I shower and let me tell you, it murders bacteria. Since I am still learning what a boundary is, I’ll freely share that I smell and get body acne. My Instagram handle is in fact smellywright and it could be taken a few different ways: Smelly was a cute nickname for Melly given to me by my cheer coach and team in high school, I am obsessed with fragrances and perfumes are very important to me, and last, and honestly most true, is that I just freaking smell. Obviously I keep up hygiene so people don’t realize this as soon as they meet me but if I workout or wear a shirt all day…there will be signs.
Snickers who??? These are candy bars that just so happen to be protein bars. I chop one up and put in my greek yogurt for breakfast or snack situation, my boyfriend thinks its weird…he’s not usually wrong, but in this case he is very incorrect.
I want to buy
It is so exhausting to constantly be in a state of want, and if we are honest with ourselves, if we live in America and have a job it is probable we all have too much. But, for the sake of sharing something that’s on my mind, I’ll indulge you.
I just finished my bag of french vanilla and am thinking of trying the cinnamon cereal. The only reason I haven’t bought it yet is because I still have some extra Designer Whey (the one they sell at Trader Joes). One of my new years resolutions is to actually finish the things I buy, crazy concept, I know. So once thats finished I’ll be pressing go. If cinnamon cereal isn’t the right choice though someone please let me know!
I am doing
Listening to Aventura
You guys. Aventura is “back together” and going on a final tour. I don’t think I know how to dance bachata but when I turn them on I am convinced I’m an all star elite professional bachata dancer. Therefore it’s only reasonable I go to one of their shows and break it down - till then I will playing them on repeat.
Getting it off my chest
There is nothing like saying what you need to say. This is usually a skill I pride myself in having but the last few months found myself lacking. Last weekend I summoned the courage to share some things that were on my mind and heart, and it felt really good. I’ve been more brave this week and want to continue to use this muscle in the moment and at the right time. There is an art to saying what you need to, but at the proper time. Still working on that last part…
Went to Aldi
One word. Hate. Why did I feel like I was in the movie Left Behind and in apocalyptic times while I was in there? The aisles were disheveled and too spaced apart. The lighting and store vibe felt like the sepia filter. You have to pay a quarter for the shopping cart…like you’re kidding. I don’t know about you, but I go to the grocery store as an escape, a sort of therapeutic experience. Aldi was the antithesis of that and I will only be returning if I am chaperoned by a friend.
Starting Old Testament
Genesis is the most underrated book of all time. Notice I didn’t say least popular because duh, everyone and their mother knows Genesis. But why aren’t we talking about it?? Angels and humans potentially reproducing? The ark was one and a half football fields long? There was no negative impact from inbreeding while the population was growing because the gene pool was not impaired? Fascinating. Don’t sleep on the OT!
To do
Last week I said I wanted to take time to do my Excel course and journal, have I done either? Well, I journaled two times and didn’t even click the Excel link so that is a no. I’ve been feeling more inspired to journal out my prayers so this is the week to do so! I have no further comment regarding Excel.
Do the things
In one of my journaling sessions I wrote out a list of my daily and weekly “tasks'“ that I am striving to do. The categories in which said things were the following: faith, work, fitness/health, website, reading, cooking, and miscellaneous. Maybe this all comes down to a mindset shift right? I GET to do these things. Yep, that actually helped. Let’s see when I check in next week…
